Finally!!!

last night at the 80's social, yeah ME at a social (otherwise known as a school get together), tediousness on high and where the superficial prey on the lower culture that is the misfits. Surprisingly i sort of had fun, i danced a lot, surprising for me, and danced with Andy. Andy is a guy who was madly in love with me, he's not in my league, well he could be, but i just don't like him in that way.

Ebay and Keyring had the brilliant idea to bring alcohol, needless to say they were suspended 20 minutes into the party.
Blondie finally got Boldie to go with her to a social, and we spent most of our time (when we weren't dancing) to make her just KISS HIM!! but then she said: "i just dont ove him!" not only is it JUST a kiss, but she had been fawning over him for over a year and then suddenly she doesn't like him.
The next day she she says it was "her time of the month" and that she had just blown it with Boldie. she was sad the whole day.
Then she told me to dare her to kiss him so she wouldn' back out, i was sick of hearing about her damn love for that man whore who probably has herpes that i just dared her.
At the end of the day she kissed him and ran off like an idiot, i will admit, i was expecting her not to do it, i know when i'm wrong, but i bet it its down hill from here. She'll lose interest soon because his mystery has disapeared, she knows what it's like to kiss him now. That adventure has disapeared,

i don't how she can be mad about him, love doesn't exist, it's a simple feeling of feeling better about yourself around another person, love IS selfish. people pretend it's not, that it's when you care about someone elses happiness more than your own, i guess it could be that, but when has this ever been more than a hope of getting this person to stay. to make YOU feel better. I love Martin, he does make me feel good, and i make him feel good, we care about eachother. well, i think we do, love is a many splintered thing, it also has a lot of angles, my angle on love is a bit backwards. but love it is.